that was unixpected

omg so i just found out my best friend got dumped by his girl again because she was afraid of ruining their friendship. what the fuck doesnt that just make it worse. yes it does i know from experience and usually spliting up and geting back together almost never works. but then again my boyfriend and i split up a year ago because i found out he only liked me for my looks and he wouldnt ever talk. but i have to aggre with him i did look pretty fricking awsome in 7th grade mostly because i was skinny. but know i still look good but im not that skinny but whatever it comes and goes. my relationship with him is really strong and thats because i made him hang out with my friends and i made him talk. truely i love spending evrey second with him. yet we could still say nothing to each other and we have a good time and omg when he wears kinda of a tight shirt and one of his awsome jackets its super sexy and then hes like way taller then me so thats a bonus. my family loves him and my friends like him 2 and evreyone says were a cute couple some people will even walk up to us and say that were a hot couple. we just laugh and exchange looks. some how i kinda feel like whats going on in my life is like the twilight series i often look at my life and compair how its like the books. i have a boyfriend who looks like a vampire and a best friend who is in love with me and thinks im great which is so weird cause its almost like the books. so anyways i couldnt stop reading Breaking Dawn (the last book of the twilgiht series) and Bella is doing amazing for a newborn vampire and she can hold Renesmee and not kill her cause Renesmee is half human half vampire; and Bella stopped herself when she was hunting and she smelt human blood and held her breath and ran away and Edward was veary impresed. Renesmee seems like such a cute babbie because she reaches for Bella whenever shes around and i find that super cute. so any way i have one more day of school till the weekend and my bodey requires sleep and my hand is cramping so good night.

bored

so im just sitting her doing nothing and im sick of coming home and doing nothing i fell so unsocial and i dont see why i cant just be like any other preppy teenager . i want to have friends besides all boys. i want to be a cheerleader and be skinny and look good in anythign and pull of any look. and most of all i want to have STRAIGH HAIR instead of this no good mess on my head i cant even brush it because if i so it just puffs up and i look like i have an affro so i have to wake up in the break of dawn to do this mess i call mi hair oh and when i have chorus in the morning its even worse today my evil dad woke me up at like 5:30am because i hade to do my hair get dressed and eat and then sing at 7:09am and i have to go to chorus like 3 times early and 1 time after school. but u know i woke up slapped myslef in the face and said okay u can do this u just have like a bazzziling days till u gratuate jounior high, high school, and not to mention college. oh yea pluse there is work and hopefully when i get married and have a stable job and a house i can easily pay for i will be blessed with little bundles of joy i want like 3 and they will all be somewhat close together i want 2 girls and 1 boy just like my mom had. i am the oldest my sister is in the middle and i have a crazy little brother. but i dont live with them sadly. i live with my grandma and grandpa but i call them mom and dad and they have adopted me when i was like 3 so i love them veary much. but i often wounder what it would be like to live with siblings that are younger than me it would probly be crazy and somewhat stressfull. when i get older i dont want my oldest or any of my children having to get adopted by anyone els. i want my oldest to be like me well not just like me because i do have some problems that i dont ever want her to live through i just dont want her to be a snob or one of those super sluts. i want her to be smart and have friends she can trust i want her to play an instrement so she can learn how to read music and hear the sweet tunes of a band playing a wounderful song that takes her away for a few minutes. i also hope she has a nice voice and hopefully she will be in plays and sing in chorus like i. the middle child she will be a rebel but nothing to the extrem like running away or doing drugs and drinking. but hopefully she is veary social and smart. the middle child probly wont be in chourus and band or plays. but i imagine her playing sports and i imagine her veary skinny and somewhat tall. the youngest will be a momys boy and he will get away with anything and he'll be super smart. and my husband i imagine my boyfriend right now even though it probly wont happen i whish it was going to be true cause his parents are super nice and funny and my boyfriend looks like a vampire no joke and sometimes he even lloks like Edward Cullen i mean hes super hottt to me but others might not think so he treats me like im a prinsess and hes always had ever since i met him like 1 year ago. well thats all for now byyyyy

school 2-10-10

so today is the first day of my blogging. school was okay like it is any other day but i hate it so much i hate the way teachers yell at u if u have something on your hand. so in math class i hade this writting on my knuckels that says HATE LOVE. so any way one of the helpers was like go wash your hands and as i gave her an evil glare i got up and washed them; i could not fight or talk back and say why do i have to i mean alot of the other girls have writting on their hands and alot of them dont get yelled at. after i had washed my hands i returned and one of the people i was working with was like ("melissa, it looks like u carved that in") my other friend ("well yea she probly did i mean she is emo") it was just purple pen and there was no need to say that i was emo. at that momment i didnt know what would happen would i get introble? would she tell someone? all of the questions ran through my head and i was preparing to get introble or have to explain something. but no the helper just sat there and i went back to my work it was so weird i mean what was i so paraniod about it was just a joke. so anyway in reading/writing class we were reading a book called tree girl and b.t.w that is an amazing freaking book. anyway so we had a sub because our teacjer couldnt join us till the 6th period so the sub made people read a chapter and it was a boring moment becuase they read super slow exept for one kid. and omg this one girl read and had no emotion whats so ever and i found my self having to read ahead. reading and writing class is my favorite because i love reading books with some kind of self conflict or lots of emotion. plus if u havent noticed i love writing lol. oh also we have a poetry unit that were working on and its really fun but i just whish that i could put my real emotions into my poems but no i cant some of them are to graphic and messed up the last thing i want is having a meeting with the school counseler, my parents, my teacher, and the princapal so no i must fake evreything. when i go to the school counseler i can hardly get my emotions out and part of that because she figured out that i probly dont have many problems. well she is so wrong my life is messed up. and i often wounder why there are bad people in the world but bad cannot exist without good and thats what kind of world we live in now days.